today i cried after i had sex







weird

goo


sp here i come!

was ok....



its was kinda lonely, even though i had colin....

hes all i really have out here.... i miss my friends....and family.

my sister didnt even call me or anything and she only lives 5 min. away, that kinda sucked

i really just wanted to spend the day with my friends i love andeverything, not the ones that i just hang out with becuase they are all i have out here.....


see you guys saturday, i cant wait!

i feel weird today...


still sick....


i went to school and there was a note on my teachers door saying she wasnt going to be there so sign the paper....


i left...



colin took me to lunch on his lunch break at work....


i now had to go to work....


i am taking 3 differnt medications right now.....so i can get better....

i woke up with some really wierd hives all over my legs and when you felt them they were about 200 degrees......yesturday....no hives today.....

justine came over last night....



life is complete




she told colin the we should be married..............................akward!!!!!

......dont you hate it when everything just seems to be a little too hard....

im getting frustrated becuase i dont think i can do it.....

and when i look at the big picture i know i can....but im sure you all know just how hard it is to stay positve all the time. especially with all the shitty things going on around me. If i could just pack up and leave san diego to come home to SP i would right now....but alas...i have a year lease i am bound into here.....and a boyfriend i love.....

when i was younger i was sooo determind to be on my own....now all i want is some support...






p.s.i hate my dad for leaving my mom, they havnt even signed the divorce papers and he already has a new girlfriend....bastard

mr gayle: i love holding your half naked body while you smoke a ciggarette in bed....

me: WHAT?!....your crazy

mr. gayle: .......about you

me: .....ditto?

mr. gayle: ...hey that could be a song!...i love holding your half naked body while you smoke a cig. in bed....that would be a pretty sick song!! we could totally be song writers together....like DONNIE and MARIE!!!!!

me: they were brother and sister colin....

mr. gayle: ok..then like.......sunny and cher!!!!!!

me:....they got a divorce colin....


mr.gayle: oh...well....ummm.. faith hill and whatever her country ass husbands name is......

me:...ok...but.....a little more rock and roll??? please??!

mr gayle: ...DUHHH!!!!!!.......








our mornings are rediculous!!

i start school today....







blow me city college!







but...but...but...mommy, i dont wanna get up for school...i dont feel good today....just.....5 more min.!!!!!!!!!........




i need support and loving, im having a bad week...or 2.....i wish i was home....


p.s. by home i mean south pasadena....my real home....4lyfe

...just today i have see 3 different news stories on 3 different PUBLIC news stations on TV...

each one cracking down on myspace, saying that its dangerous and that there are LOADS of sexual preditors on it....



further more the proceeded to tell me that i should NEVER meet ANYONE on myspace....

and my mother should know my password....



well i have NEWS for you NBC, CBS and ABC!!!!......


i met my boyfriend on myspace, and he is the love of my life......


i dont care how lame that sounds...hes fucking amazing.....and i wouldnt take back meeting him EVER!!!!!!!


and as for you ...telling parents everywhere that they should be INVADING their childrens privacy.......


SCREW YOU!!!!!! YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF!!!